The rest of my body hit puberty, except for my chest. When I was in secondary school, I noticed that every other girl had breasts, but not me. This didn’t bother me too much because I thought, “maybe I’m just a late bloomer.” I was bullied for my chest size. I was told that I should wear a bra, even though I was too small to wear one.
Years passed and my chest was as flat as it was when I was 12, a tiny 30” around, which would fit into a tiny UK size 4 or US 0. To put this in perspective, the average waist size for a woman in the UK is 34”. The smallest measurement on the average woman’s torso is larger than my (pre-op) bust measurement. The average bust measurement in the UK is 38.5”.
For years, I was crying about how flat chested I was, on an almost daily basis. Besides the size, another concern was my shape. I noticed something was wrong when I was in university and I was doing a photoshoot with my friends.
Everyone took off their shirts revealing full, perfectly shaped breasts, except for me with my deformed ones. I knew something was wrong with how I developed. Three years later, I finally went to a plastic surgeon.
Meeting the Plastic Surgeon:
I was a wreck, emotionally, before my surgery. I was in a rush to pick a surgeon so I could fix my deformity and not have it ruin my mental health anymore.
The surgeon I went to diagnosed me with tuberous breasts and said that not only would I need implants, I would need to get a procedure to get rid of herniated tissue, leaving me with no tissue at all, not that I had much, to begin with.
I didn’t want to be so big chested that I couldn’t fit in all my dresses that I’ve collected over the years so I asked to be a reasonably sized C cup. I read up so much about sizes and I worried that I would be too big.
I noticed a few flaws with the surgeon, but I chose him anyway because he had experience and I urgently needed this surgery. The surgeon was impolite and he insisted that he knew best, talking to me in a condescending way when I had a question. He promised me the world and said I’d be very happy after my surgery.
Surgery and Recovery:
And I was happy with the surgery, at first. The surgery only lasted a little over an hour. I went home and slept until the anaesthesia wore off and I started screaming because of the pressure on my chest. I took painkillers and shortly afterward, I threw up.
I was constipated for a week after surgery and I couldn’t raise my arms above my shoulders for a week. This made it difficult to do anything like taking a shower or preparing a meal.
A week later, I went on holiday and everything went fine, although I had to ask for help with putting my bag in the overhead storage bin. I was happy with the size and shape of my implants at that time.
Normally with breast implants, there is swelling and then a period called drop and fluff, where the implants drop to a normal position and fill out a bit. For me, this didn’t really happen. Straight away after surgery my chest measured 34”. A year later, my chest measured 34”, although I look smaller.
It was a huge adjustment getting used to the size and I thought I looked huge immediately post-op. Perhaps I got used to the size over time and that’s why I think I look small. No one can tell I got breast implants and in most clothes, there’s not really any visible bump of breasts, even in vest tops or low cut clothing.
Final Thoughts and Recommendations
I wish I had done more research and consulted with more surgeons before deciding on which surgeon to go with. I also wish I picked a surgeon in my local area because many surgeons won’t help you if you live far away.
As for the implants, I’m glad my breasts look closer to normal, but I wish I got silicone implants and I wish I went a bit larger. Saline implants are prone to rippling and being thin, it’s easier to see and feel. I don’t like the way my implants feel. I also noticed that my nipples were left crooked after the surgery.
I suppose I will take this as a lesson learnt and save up money to get bigger implants next time.
My 10 recommendations for breast implants:
1. Be picky with your surgeon because at the end of the day, it’s your body and you need to be happy. Don’t go with the cheapest surgeon automatically, make sure they are board certified, and see some before and after pictures.
2. Make sure you are healthy mentally and physically. Get breast implants for you, not for your partner or to impress someone. You might be turned down for surgery if you’re not mentally or physically healthy.
3. If having small breasts lowers your self-esteem, try to get help for that. Breast implants are not a magic cure. Have realistic expectations.
4. Make some rice sizers if your surgeon doesn’t have their own. Just get some rice and an old pair of stockings and fill them to the size you want.
5. Breast implants look smaller in clothing. You might want to go larger than you think. For example, my bra size is 30DD/E, you wouldn’t guess that from looking at me.
6. Consider silicone implants, especially if you’re thin. While saline implants are not really used in Ireland, they are common if you’re getting surgery abroad. Silicone implants cost a bit more, but they are worth the money and come with a better warranty. They feel more realistic too.
7. If you want cleavage, you might still have to wear a padded bra or use bra inserts. Some breasts are more naturally far apart than others and implants won’t always close the gap between breasts.
8. Speaking of bras, get a proper fitting one for the best support, whether or not you’re getting implants. You’ll feel better too. Women often wear too large a band size and too small a cup size.
9. If you’re stuck in between sizes and you’re in the DD+ cup size range like me, you won’t find padded bras. You can buy padding separately or you can DIY it by cutting out an old bra’s padding and stitching fabric around it.
10. Research! Research! Research! I know there is a lot more I wish I had known. Read as much as you can and look at before and after pictures so you can better know what you want.